2018 chapter 46: November 14

We did a thing and everything looks 85% better! 

It opened everything up, even more than I imagined. And now it's everyone's absolute favorite place to play. Balance beam. "Table" to color on. Place to build. It's a hit. We were going to put a big shelf in this spot (the shelf in the top left of this pic, which we'll put in the basement), but now we're not sure. Maybe a little buffet? Maybe just a step all the way across? Luckily it's not a death step as it is, and until we decide...it's being well loved. 

Then we burned that sucker and had a dreamy bonfire. We got snowflakes on our noses and eyelashes and it became my new favorite thing. For reals, winter bonfires. Love them. No bugs. You're actually cold, so you enjoy being by the fire. But you have to wash all the coats. Only downside. As Travis pointed out, it burned quicker and hotter than anything should that goes it your house, ha! 

We had a stupid day today. Yes, I said stupid. If Wade were awake...and could read, he'd call me out. We had to meet the guy we bought our car from at the DMV, the car was in a trust and when I went to the DMV I was told we had to have the trust in order to switch the car over. So, met up with him. Waited over an hour. My kids got restless and started wrestling. Circumstances as they were, they did really awesome. Except for when I saw Jac chewing something and she opened her mouth and there was definitely food in it, we did not bring any food in. So gross. We finally get up to the counter and they said they didn't need to see the trust to sell the car! Only to buy. Ugh, so embarrassing and annoying. I could've done it in 10 minutes at my little, never busy, DMV - except they had no idea what they were talking about and sent me on this dumb goose chase. The guy was so nice about it. And, I never have to see him again. 

Then we paid and got three quarters as change and I gave to my patient little kiddos and we went for a ride on a carousel. They could see this ride the whole time, taunting them and giving them hope for the end. 

We got a good snow last Saturday, just enough to justify playing in it. And not enough to have to shovel or clean up - making it a good snow. 

Took a fake sleeping picture snuggling my girls. Then I really did fall asleep and took a two hour nap I regretted. Then I was up until 4:30 that night, errrr, morning. But I sure love when they ask me for cuddles and their happy faces when I say okay. Also, my real sleep face still includes an open mouth and drool. 

My kids are at a liberating place where they can get some of their own snacks. Today Blake got herself a plate of bread crumbs. She was really happy about it. And, I think they were stale anyway.  

We're trying to flatten the rug in our room. But our kids just think we were being fun parents and throwing a party. Same thing happened when we took out the banister. We're just a party. 

We got balloons at Chick-Fil-A. We got in the car and I had to run inside to get another one, cause we made a sacrifice to the sky. Always doing our part to ruin the environment. Then we got home and I kept reminding our kids that the balloons needed to stay in the living room, Blake didn't listen and lost her balloon. Devastating. Then Wade, through no coaxing from me, gave her his balloon to make her happy. Ugh, my mommy heart burst. So much that I snuggled that boy on my lap and asked him to tell me about Grossery Gangs. And I sat there and listened.

Saturday Jacqueline jumped off the couch and sprained her ankle. She couldn't walk for two days! She was crawling and sliding all over. Everyone would join in and it looked like I had a synchronized swim team wiggling on my kitchen floor. Monday she started putting some weight on it, but cried going to preschool, so I took her with me. Now she keeps telling me that her leg is all better and she can go to preschool.

After preschool today Wade was showing his pictures to his sisters and Jac started kissing one of them and said, "It's so pretty, like me!" Girl has confidence.

We picked up a friend from preschool on Monday (all our stories are preschool today!) and Wade was telling her, if she was good at our house then "your mom will be so impressed."

My leg is doing way better. Hamstring is still healing, but the extra pain was from my sciatic. Oh man, so much pain. Started figuring that out and stretching and doing some massages with a tennis ball (which is driving Stella CRAZY!).

Oh, and this needs to be documented. Bryan heated up a rice bag and put it on his side of the bed. Then before falling asleep he put it on my side of the bed. It's the little things people. The littlest things.


2018 chapter 45: November 7

Preschool started today!!!! All three kids were gone for two hours. Is it weird that I'd kinda like to watch them outside the window? See them be happy. Enjoy exploring and learning. Watching the teenager teachers think they're so cute (cause they're so cute...talking about my kiddos here, not the teenagers, to be extra clear). 

Nine out of the fifteen spots available were filled up with church people. One kid not pictured. We always up the numbers, but still pretty impressive. And nice, cause then as moms we all went and wondered Target. 

Wade went in no problem, old hat. Blake was so ready too. Jac needed me to walk her to the classroom and she needed to put on a show of being shy (what an act! Girl has a flare for the dramatic). When I got to the classroom with her, Blake was already sitting at the front of the room, with her legs folded, all ready for to get this thing going! At that point Jac was stuck behind teenagers  trying to shuffle in, and she was too curious, so she let go of my hand and wove her way through the legs and she was off too. I don't know if she melted down when she realized I was gone, but I doubt it. 

When I picked them up their student teachers came out with them to introduce themselves to me (the HS class changes in the middle, so it's different students than who I dropped them off with) and this year they have three students each. As we walked away we waved at the nine high school girls that play with me people and I had to laugh. Next week I will have to take a picture.Then the girls fell asleep in the car, cause preschool is a lot of work. 

I taught an Instant Pot class on Friday at our church activity/craft night. Funny, cause I'm not the food person. When it comes to food I'm practical, which is what my class was and I've had a few emails saying thanks cause now they feel able to use their instant pot! I figured out how to make yogurt and my kids LOVED it. I finally just gave them all spoons and the bowl cause all our other bowls were dirty from their repeated helpings of yogurt. Side note: a very important toddler yogurt ingredient = sprinkles.   

Saturday afternoon I tweaked my back leaning forward at a baptism. It hurt so bad. I couldn't stay sitting, I couldn't stand. It felt like lighting was going in at my back and all the way down my left leg. I hunched out and pushed my children before me - people just thought I was trying to get my restless kids out discretely, in reality I was trying to not puke or black out. The door shut as I got into the hallway and I had to grip onto a table and focus on my breathing like in labor, only I think I'd prefer being in labor. Their bishop was outside and entertained my kids while I laid down in a classroom and the fire calmed down. I somehow made it home and called Bryan to get the kids out of the car, the I went upstairs and went on bed rest for the weekend. 

I had a few bed rest visitors, cause mom had TV in bed.   

Blake fell asleep Sunday afternoon, so she had a hard time falling asleep that night. Jac and her were playing, then Jac fell asleep and Blake came into tell me all about it, "Jacqueline sleeping, but I still wan play!" Being the pushover that I am (especially with Blake, especially cause I was already pushed on my back), she stayed up with me. Stealing Jacqueline's owlet. 

Fast forward to today. I'm doing okay. My back nerves or whatever are still touchy and threatened to pinch again tonight (while I was trying to wipe. You're welcome for that info). I think it's my sciatic nerve, cause it hurts all the way down my leg, and hurts extra good on my still-healing-pulled-hamstring. I'm feeling very annoyed and ...bleak about this dumb leg. Can I apply bleak as an emotion? But, I don't think I reinjured my hamstring, which I thought this weekend and was very upsetting. I've been seeing a chiropractor and I'm setting up an appointment with a massage therapist. If I see no improvement this week, I'll figure out physical therapy.

Today we overheard Wade asking his sisters "is it easy-peasy? Or so hard?"

Everyone has been playing trick or treat all week with each other. Tangent on that, I am so grateful that my kids are playing pretty well together and they've been pretty good as I have to take a lot of downtime right now. I hate it. I fell like 75% of my patience at any given moment is used up on my leg and I have little left for their little human behavior. And I want to play with them and enjoy them more. But I get to hear their giggles as they invent games together. I've been encouraging them to work stuff out on their own, and I've been seeing them come to one another's needs more. I'm really blessed. Also, my gripe on my  homes cleanliness has slipped greatly, as has my control of the crayons. I have the colored on carpet and walls to prove it.

Today at Target I got some tape on clearance. I gave Wade one roll today. He made this:

It's an armless, legless tape robot. That apparently needed to be frozen to complete: 

Blake's been really into washing her hands. Very thorough. Usually requires a shirt change. Sometimes a whole outfit change. Here she was telling me, "Almost done, mommy. Almost done."

About my dramatic redhead. Bryan was fixing an oil leak on his car and we had to take him to work a few days while his car was torn apart. This was Jac's face as we said bye one morning. I watched her go from slightly sad to distorting her face into a cry. Girl is dramatic. 

Quiet time means unsupervised time upstairs. They mostly stay in their rooms. There's always a point when the girls sneak to Wade's room and they all play and they think they're fooling me and I let them, cause they're all playing so nicely. But, Jac's been getting more mischievous. No. mischievous implies some kind of intent, she's just bored and weird. The crayon markings were her. It's always her. We (even Wade) all say, "It's always Jacqueline."  I don't think she tries to be bad...she just does such bad things. Anyway, whenever something goes missing you just ask Jac. Bryan couldn't find his deodorant, he asked Jac and she brought in a little bag and unzipped it and pulled out daddy's deodorant. Couldn't find the kid toothpaste, asked Jac and she went and pulled it out from under the bed. 

Okay, I'm off to stretch, ice, heat, then to bed. I'd appreciate prayers. Oh, I should also say that I've been having friends check in that I'm okay and dinner was brought to us Sunday. I'm truly blessed. But I'm still ready to be done with the pain. Until next week! 

Oh wait, I didn't post these! Took some more Matilda Jane pictured for a seller. It was really fun to have the kids decorate a tree, made lovely pictures. And my kids are so cute!